Huh! I m working?

Peace be to all ... understatement of the year... I guess everyone is working full time one way or the other. The moment u wake up you have to "work" the difference is u need not get out and go to a specific place every weekday as a routine. Or you can choose what you want to do and set your own datelines and not get stressed out by a supervisor or anyone above you. But you'll still get stressed out by others - haiz... what is life without stress :) Hmmm... that does not make any difference to me ... hahaha the only difference is I don't have to do my work at a specific place and show my face there or force myself sitting in a corner to complete my task and get paid on a regular basis.

I m never someone who can get used to a routine for long...the last time i gotten used or try to get used to a routine ... I almost turned bonkers, it must have been hard for my system ... and so I had decided to take a break and became very undisciplined and random in what I m doing. It's been more than a year now and I m starting to contemplate as to whether i should go back and jump into the bandwagon again??? Be discipline and consistent in my so that I will be more productive and able to contribute more to the society and blah, blah and blah...

So now I have to go tru another round of contemplation to assess the pros and cons of going back to "work" ... I got a feeling it will take quiet some time bcos I have some projects that i m doing that may stretch all the way to next year...haha... let be discipline and get those projects completed before i surrendering myself to a routine schedule :)

I supposed when the time is right Allah will provide for me the urge and the need to be employed (regardless as an independent or an employee) - what is important is I will be doing it because Allah will be pleased with me, insyaallah.

Shoo! Keep away arrogance!

سُوۡرَةُ بنیٓ اسرآئیل / الإسرَاء

وَلَا تَمۡشِ فِى ٱلۡأَرۡضِ مَرَحًا‌ۖ إِنَّكَ لَن تَخۡرِقَ ٱلۡأَرۡضَ وَلَن تَبۡلُغَ ٱلۡجِبَالَ طُولاً۬ (٣٧)

Al-Isra And walk not on the earth with conceit and arrogance. Verily, you can neither rend nor penetrate the earth, nor can you attain a stature like the mountains in height. (37)

i was taught and conditioned by my respected teachers and elders that there is nothing so great about me other that i am one of Allah's creations. just like a spec of dust in the Universe - i must however remain thankful and in constant gratitude for being that spec of dust.

hehe somehow it reminds me of Dr Suess story of "Horton hears a who" even tho u r a spec of dust. U still belong to a universe of your own and u deserve all the respect bcos u r still created for a purpose.

سُوۡرَةُ المؤمنون

أَفَحَسِبۡتُمۡ أَنَّمَا خَلَقۡنَـٰكُمۡ عَبَثً۬ا وَأَنَّكُمۡ إِلَيۡنَا لَا تُرۡجَعُونَ (١١٥)

Al-Mumenoon

"Did you think that We had created you in play (without any purpose), and that you would not be brought back to Us?" (115)

And so I must always remind myself not to be arrogant for what ever you have done well or otherwise it is because The Creator allows it to happen. Nobody can stop it from happening. So when u see someone doing stupid stuff - imagine yourself doing it too, this will help you from being judgemental towards that person.

The same goes when u see someone successful and you wish for the same, imagine yourself being one and work towards that purpose, insyaallah you will achieve it too.

I once laughed or commented on how could a person made such a stupid mistake and unknowingly I had made the same mistake at another time. When I realised it was too late to turn back. It was a painful yet very valuable lesson which taught me never to laughed at others because it could happen to me too. 

It also made me realised that at that point of time if Allah had wanted me not to make those mistakes earlier He would have allowed it but it was meant for me to make those mistakes so that I will learnt from it and become stronger in faith, be humble and never be arrogant. Insyaallah, Allah will keep me away from making the same mistakes again.

Everything that happened is already written, the difference is how we will handle the consequences. If we redha and accepted it as it is, we will be able to move on - if we don't than we r being too arrogant to accept what Allah had given us.

May all of us see the path that is meant for us clearly and move towards it calmly with Allah's blessings, insyaAllah. Amin