It is because of Allah

Peace b to all .... oIf there is anything I want to put a cause of how or why it happens it is because of Allah. Whether we like it or not it is due to Allah's Mercy that things happened as they did.
The same goes when it comes to our children and the life we lead to. At times I felt that many of us are arrogant and wishful for thinking that we made it happen when it turned out to be good and and there must b something wrong somewhere when the end results is not as planned or what we wish for.
I have seen many cases, even for myself that sometimes I get disappointed, dissatisfied, unhappy with certain outcome and started to look for something to blame. Then after reflecting and trying to gather the learning points - at the end of the day, I will have a better sense of acceptance if I had put it as - Allah had planned for it to happened this way. My only duty is to go thru the process with an open heart and redha.In such a situation I would feel more at peace and less dissatisfied or disappointed :)

Auditory deficiency?

Alhamdulillah...its raining and the cool day reminded me of the cold breeze up Mount Kinabalu (see pic) was there last June - yes I missed the mountains and I missed having the freedom of not having to go to work in the morning. But still I m always in gratitude to Allah for allowing me to be useful - to have something to do and get paid for it even tho I feel that I m not doing much except that I am rushing every time I m at office to accomplish 1 task after another.

Every time I m overwhelmed, I told myself that I should be in gratitude for being able to contribute to the community and help many in their learning journey...yes inshaa-Allah hope I will continue to be able to contribute and help others in my line of work.

Everyday...I pick up some tips from my colleagues and learn to be patient, to stay calm and the same time not to take things for granted ...I have to listen and stay quiet until others are done talking - that is one of the most difficult thing for me to do - but I get many chances to re-learn and try again to listen. Because there are so many ppl who wants to talk and all I need is to stay quiet and listen.

Being auditory deficit is a challenge - not that I can't hear well - I just am not good at listening because I can hear lots of things. People talking is like mosquitoes buzzing in my ears - so now I am trying to find ways to make those voices sound like music to my ears. So I will be able to listen well instead of hearing noises.

It's a challenge - but what is life without challenges - u will not grow if you are unable to overcome challenges. Growth will make you feel alive and knowing there is something for you to attain and a goal for you to achieve - yes, it is a simple and minute goal and I m ever in gratitude to Allah for giving me such a simple challenge. For I m weak and small and I m not sure I can handle more than that. I m worried I might not even be able to carry out this challenge and clear those noises into something positive and productive.

Oh Allah... I can only turn to You for help - because You give me this faculty - let me make good use of it, inshaa-Allah. Ameen...

بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ

وَقَالُواْ لَوۡ كُنَّا نَسۡمَعُ أَوۡ نَعۡقِلُ مَا كُنَّا فِىٓ أَصۡحَـٰبِ ٱلسَّعِيرِ (١٠)

They will further say: "Had we but listened or used our intelligence we should not (now) be among the Companions of the Blazing Fire!" (Surah Al-Mulk:10)